This is my 4th month working already. During this 4 months, I have to say the learning curve is bloody steep. Of course, comparing to when I am just a newbie, I have definitely grown.
But at the back of my mind, I am really not confident of myself, and the job is making that worse.
I have lost all my optimism or anything to look forward to besides off days. And even off days, I have nothing much to do either, except to sleep away.
Trying to learn as much as possible. But, my poor memory and carelessness ain't helping.
Am I suitable for this job?
Am I even suitable for anything at all?
I really feel like life is going down an enormous downward spiral, like being flushed. I hope things get better soon.
I am trying to get the right mindset, making quitting not an option. But my mentor quitted and now, my closest friend I had in the company.....
It's making me sad and pessimistic.
What should I do?
