Pain of shift

December roster is out.

Working 18 days, 8 nights.

Working on Christmas Eve night and the eve of my birthday.

I signed up for this... too bad.

Work Work

This is my 4th month working already. During this 4 months, I have to say the learning curve is bloody steep. Of course, comparing to when I am just a newbie, I have definitely grown.

But at the back of my mind, I am really not confident of myself, and the job is making that worse.
I have lost all my optimism or anything to look forward to besides off days. And even off days, I have nothing much to do either, except to sleep away.

Trying to learn as much as possible. But, my poor memory and carelessness ain't helping.

Am I suitable for this job?

Am I even suitable for anything at all?

I really feel like life is going down an enormous downward spiral, like being flushed. I hope things get better soon.

I am trying to get the right mindset, making quitting not an option. But my mentor quitted and now, my closest friend I had in the company.....

It's making me sad and pessimistic.

What should I do?

5 Languages of Love

This is somewhat the things that girls usually read, but I came across this term from a blog, namely,  the 5 languages of love, and thought it pretty much sums up the different kind of needs in relationships.

There are 5 types.

1) Words of Affirmation
2) Physical Touch
3) Quality Time
4) Receiving Gifts
5) Act of Service

Humorously, mine is tied between 1), 3) and 5).

I am hard to please. Hahahhaa.